BLOGGER RETREAT

I would love to get together and meet in person my blog friends that have stuck by side through my crappy almost 3 months! It was so sweet to get personal e-mails and kind words from you all. So now I want to meet you! OK, ok. How can we do this? Let's say VEGAS!!! Oh, ya, that's not fair I live here, OK then how about wine country?? No, that won't work, I hardly drink. UUUMMMMM HAWAII!!! Yes, that would be wonderful, don't you think?? I WISH, as I sit at my desk, with my sweat pants on, wondering if I will ever smile again.. OK, that was a bit dramatic, I even smiled as I was typing it, but I think you know what I mean. I needs some FUN, I am talking laughing out loud, holding my stomach from laughing so hard fun.. Almost peeing my pants fun. Hoping that moment will never end fun. I can not even remember the last time I felt that way, so I am day dreaming about it and a blog retreat. I bet you 10 to 1 they have them! And if they don't, we need to start one because I need a good excuse to get away from life for a few days. I think it would be wonderful to meet you guys, unless you really are guys, named Randy! A 56 year old, never been married and still living at his mothers house, with his cat named Madonna! Blogging 24/7 because he has never worked a day in his life, except for taking care of his alien mother.. (breath, breath). Sorry, my mind started to wander, I think it is a protection mechanism, that protects me from going crazy, even though it sounds crazy. I really just cracking myself up. So I thought I would share my dream of meeting all you wonderful people, that sent me such kind words. THANK YOU!! I will try and stay around this time. I miss commenting and your comments. Think about the retreat thing, really..Unless you are a dude.

MY NOT SO BABY BOY

BY THE WAY

By the way, my new stress release is gambling! Yes I know, not such a great thing to do, but I have made enough money to pay an attorney fee.. WOO HOO. My luck has been amazing, and I have met such great people, whom have no idea what I am going through, and I like it that way. They just see the happy go lucky girl that is covering up the mother of all freakazoid stressed out basket case, that I really am right now. Should have been an actress I guess!! LOL

NO, I DID NOT DIE

Sorry I have not been around. You all have been so nice with the private e-mails asking how I am and if I need to talk you are there for me. I LOVE THIS. I had no idea people cared that I have never met. thank you for this. I will be trying to get into the swing of things soon, so please do not give up on me! My life is CRAZY, and if I can not fix it, I think about it way too much. I need to let go, and know things will work out as they need too. I have so much to do all of the time and it is so stressful that it takes from my creative side. It is funny that I am one way or another, no middle ground for me. I miss you all, and will try to get back in the game very soon. I tend to shut down socially during high stress. I do not think that it is a good thing, but I do not like to bring people down, life is hard as it is and you do not need my stuff on top of all yours. THANK YOU ALL.